Let's talk about your love language. You became a Christian...but...you keep going back to the same behaviors. Your life isn't changing like you expected. You're the same person. Your drinking, lying, all the old self—it's still there! The new creation that God says has come seems missing in action. But have you learned a new language?
The best way to learn a new language is to be immersed in it, to have it around you all the time. Many people become Christians, but then they keep all their old friends and habits. Their friends are still out drinking, so they stick with that environment. Early Christians were successful in seeing the new creation because they lived it—with each other. They learned a new language by cultural immersion. If you're having trouble, follow this example:
"Day by day continuing with one mind in the temple, and breaking bread from house to house, they were taking their meals together with gladness and sincerity of heart." (Acts 2:46)