For this very moment push all your notions of who you are in your own mind out of your head. Look at everything you've done and will do from an outside point of view, with no biases—just your actions and words, the fruit of your life. You're now starting to look into a mirror that reflects not your physical body, but your character and spirit. We're not through yet—we have to know the point of view from which we're looking. Let's read James 1:

"For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks at his natural face in a mirror; for once he has looked at himself and gone away, he has immediately forgotten what kind of person he was. But one who looks intently at the perfect law, the law of liberty, and abides by it, not having become a forgetful hearer but an effectual doer, this man will be blessed in what he does." (23-25)

Look at everything again. Assess all those actions, the good and the bad—teaching people the gospel, getting black-out drunk—against the Mirror of the Word. Keep it in your mind; don't forget. That is who you are. What changes do you need to make, not from your own perspective, but from the perspective of that outside observer, and that mirror—from the perspective of God?